there's gotta be more... than wanting more

so i asked my sister if she wanted to train for the sf marathon with me. she declined, and then she told me that sometimes, i dream too big.

here, i thought that setting an actual goal for myself was a good thing. it's attainable and there are sure to be other benefits along the way.

a part of me got defensive and tried to justify why i have my eyes set on the marathon, and then i stopped myself, walked into the next room, and went back to doing my work. i felt defeated. sad. alone.

i've been having a lot of these moments with myself lately. i'm not really sure i know what i need right now, so it makes seeking some kind of consolation hard. sigh.

all other issues can take a number. let me just get through this project and allow my foot to heal and i bet things will turn around again.

new year. new goals. new commitment to self

I'm going to train for the SF Marathon.

I will start once the doctor tells me my foot is good.
I will pre-train for 8 weeks to bring my cardio up.
I will train with discipline and dedication.
I will finish.

And I will dance in between. =)